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islands
I don't have to leave anymore. What I have is right here. Spend my nights and days before.
Searching the world for what's right here. Underneath and unexplored. Islands and cities I have looked.
Here I saw Something I couldn't over look. I am yours now. So now I don't ever have to leave.
I've been found out. So now I'll never explore. See what I've done.
That bridge is on fire. Going back to where I've been. I'm froze by desire. No need to leave.
Where would I be. IF this were to go under. It's a risk I'd take. I'm froze by desire. As if a choice I'd make.
I am yours now. So now I don't ever have to leave. I've been found out. So now I'll never explore.
So now I'll never explore.


Saturday, May 03, 2008, 8:36 PM


I know I said hiatus. But whatever. I need to get this out. Angry post ahead. Watch out.


I know I'm inadequate and can never ever match up, but why the hell do you have to shove that fact in my face? I mean, I know you might not mean it, or maybe you do, I don't know, but sometimes its alot better if you could just NOT SAY ANYTHING.


Cos' really, the situation is so screwed up right now that putting me down isn't gonna help. I get that she was a whole lot better than me. I know that. But you don't have to keep going on and on about "why can't you be more like her?".


I get that you want me to be better, to live up to your insane expctations, but what if I fall short? That totally doesn't give you the right to rag on me and point out how sucky I was compared to her. So stop trying to turn me into something I'm not cos' I'm my own person and I like it that way. It sucks that it's come to this cos' I really, really didn't think that you would ever become this person that you are now.


-end angry post-


I really need someone to talk to. My reliance on the internet is getting kinda scary. 0.0


On another note, I find it strangely disturbing yet amusing that certain relatives of mine are actually reading my blog. Some, and I won't name who, *coughyenneecough*, on a daily basis. Makes me I guess, a bit more conscious about what I'm posting. But, haha, wouldn't it be SO amusing if I posted something, let's say, about me going to run away from home or something? :D They'd freak and tell my mum who'd probably lock me in the house and throw away the key.